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I went out with letong during the afternoon just now.

And there's some celebration going on and they were giving out balloons. So we took one each. I wonder how they tie the balloons without the balloons bursting, hmm.

I am so bored now. I feel so lazy recently. Its not the end of Os, and im already going out everyday. Im going out tomorrow too. I dont really intend to study much for chinese. I dont know how to study chinese, and whether i study for chinese or not, makes no difference.

I shall just read the letter writing format and pray for the best lol.

Nothing to write already, byebye.

7:47 PM

Bloghopped and came across something from weilin's blog.

Second chances. Girls take more of them then guys do. Why? I blame Disney, building up these false hopes, making me believe I can have my Prince Charming. We believe that one day we’re going to be saved, that one day, one boy is going to come and change our whole lives around in the most perfect way. In the movies there’s no ‘other woman’, there’s no deception. There’s just a happy ending, conditions and circumstances don’t apply. So what are we to do when our hearts get broken? The logical thing to do is move on, of course, but despite all the lying, the cheating, the crushed dreams, & the painful memories, there’s a speck of hope. A little, itty bit piece of our hearts that’s begging for the fairy tale, screaming that we let him try again. so we do. we cry and bite our tongues, hoping that this liar in aluminum foil will finally become our knight in shining armor. Hoping that this time he’ll be able to make us feel safe, and actually do it. That’s why we break so easily; cause our fairy tale dreams are placed on real life boys. Boys who need to be saved themselves.

Bio paper 2 yesterday was okay, now i start thinking of the bell-shaped curve again -.-

It feels as though Os are over (though i still have combined science mcq, bio mcq and chinese paper next week), i even started playing maple and editing my facebook. Everyone is so psyched about the end of Os, but to me, i feel kinda sad?

I mean, yes i cant wait for Os to be over. But i dont really know what to do after the Os. Im so gonna be bored everyday -.- These are the only things that i intend to do. Cant think of anymore things to do!

- Play maple.
- Go shopping.

- Watch taiwan shows on youtube.
- Go out with my friends to watch movie, play etc etc.
- Work. (maybe only, but not everyday.)
- Read storybooks (Twilight, Re-read Harry Potter.)
- Highligh/Dye my hair.
- Stay at home and become a couch potato.

(Thats the only things i can think of. Will update you if there's any new plans -.-)

I dont like to be bored, it makes me think of things that i dont want to think of.

So i kind of intend to make myself so busy in the holidays. Like those kind of so busy until, i wake up early in the morning, rush to work or go out with my friends, reach home, and then go out with my family (not necessary to spend money) and when i reach home, its already 8pm plus, and i will so tired until my brain jam from the hustle and bustle of the day.

And then, i will indulge myself in a warm drink and bath, and then its maple and computer time all the way until midnight. And by time, my eyes should be half-closed already. Too tired to think of anything. Boredom makes me feel lousy, i dont like to stay at home, laze around and do nothing. Makes me feel as though im wasting my life. Life is so short, we can only undergo the teenage phase once only!

Lol and then time will slowly devour those memories and i will be happily anticipating what life has in store for me the next day, and stop being so affected by the past, which consequently affect my life -.-

But all these are merely daydreams cause i doubt i will be that busy everyday. Im always so bored and free in the holidays. And i dont have so many friends to be willing to go out with me everyday. So its back to square one, nothing's gonna change, except my brain, which is constantly visualising things for me to get away from all these. Thats why i dont really look forward for the end of Os in a way.

I dont know how to explain, maybe this paragraph i got from a random website can explain it.

I need to stop reminding myself of the pain.
Yes, it happened.
But I will always have hope.
No longer will I dwell on the negative,
But I will roll with the punches, and hope for the best.
Sometimes, the thing you need most, is to forget.

But i dont know how to forget. -.-

Without school = No fun, no laughter and not able to see my friends. Ok bye.

5:21 PM

Lol, i said that i wont post till Os are over, but im still going to post.

The O level papers so far are quite okay, except for some subjects -.- Shall post a short update on the papers i had so far, before i continue facebook-ing. :)

Physics Practical Exam - Quite ok.
Chemistry Practical Exam - Not ok. (i got one of the salts wrong -.-)

English P1 - Compo was ok, but letter writing sucks. My format was wrong (i think) and i made quite a few mistakes in the letter, and i sound too formal? wrong tone, sian.
English P2 - Quite ok, but my summary tense is wrong, i wrote it in present tense. I hope to get a B3 for english. But judging from the english written papers, it will be a miracle if i get a B3.

Emaths P1 - It was quite easy, but it sucks. Cause i made many careless mistakes -.-
Emaths P2 - Quite ok. But i dont think i can score well cause many people find the emaths paper easy, so the bell-shaped curve sure will be raised one, sian.

Amaths P1 and P2 - Quite okay. I only left two questions blank which means 10 marks are gone. This is the first time in my life whereby i didnt leave more than three questions blank :D But i made some careless mistakes, but i hope that the bell-shaped curve wont be raised (many people find it easy too.)

Chemistry P2 - Quite easy. Everyone thinks so too. Nobody that i know find the paper hard so far. So, bell-shaped curve sure got raised one -.-

Physics P2 - Normal. Not easy and not difficult. Hope the bell-shaped curve wont be raised.

SS - Quite ok. I kind of predicted that venice wont come out, and my prediction came through!

History - SEQ was kinda tough to me. But in the SBQ, there's a source picture that ms hassan gave us in class, and it came out in the Os, yay thats a great thing :D

Ok, i dont think that there's anymore papers not mentioned. In conclusion, i did badly for english and emaths. I dont know why im so worried about the bell-shaped curve. Its like, im starting to find that getting 85 marks and above is then secure enough to get an A1.

I mean, comparing damai with those better schools, if 80% of the damaians find the papers easy, then let alone those better schools such as anglican high and cedar girls? I think they close one eye also can get A1 uh. Not that im insulting damai, im merely stating the fact.

I dont like it when the paper is hard, cause i feel stupid. I dont like it when the paper is easy, cause i will start thinking about the bell-shaped curve thing and about the number of careless mistakes i made. Sometimes a paper may seem easy, but there's many underlying traps beneath each easy question omg.

I shall go and sleep now and press on for the remaining papers, bye.

11:54 AM